Saturday, March 31, 2012

Chaz is Empty in: The Night

The Night

The night has become
Useless for me to sleep
I slowly walk around our
Home looking for traces
Of you

I stand by the fireplace and
Ask if you want me to
Start a fire and all I hear is
The wind outside

I slouch down into the purple
Chair and I squint to see if any
Shadows of you are in the
Kitchen calling out to me
Asking if I see the woodpecker or
The cardinal in the feeder
But I can only imagine your
Beautiful face smiling at me
While you make tea

The night has become useless for
Me as I am hopelessly adrift in the
Space between your leaving and
Then returning to my arms

For a few days I can remember your
Intimacy with me but now I am losing ground to forgetting how you move and forgetting how you speak and forgetting how you twirl your hair

Yes even in our cool blue bedroom
That you love so much the night is useless to me and just last night I no longer could hear the birds & the geese and the crickets sing my
Heart was too far away and even this
Room seemed useless to me

I stare at calendars and clocks and quietly watch as the hours pass until
You return and I walk by the cactus in
Our hallway and promise you will be
Home in just a few days

Charles Grimes

Mazes, Mandalas, and Flowers

I love Lynne's richly textured, colorful and imaginative textile art over at her site.  Check it out . . .

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Lado

The Annual Croatian Night in Anacortes again.  Salmon, pivo, lots of music and traditional dancers.  This year's performances included a suite of music and dance  "celebrating spring with propitiation to Lado -- a deity predating Christianity.  The songs ask for green and fertile fields, healthy youth, and harmony in the villages."

Very cool.

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Happy Vernal Equinox

Once again we're on the winning team.

Om Shanti Om.


Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Miracle in Africa: baby eva 6 days old

Here is a photo of our lovely granddaughter Eva at 6 days old . . . Melanie

Saturday, March 17, 2012

Olivia Took this


From Chaz: Baby Eva Grimes

Subject: Baby Eva
 . . . Liz gave birth Monday night to a beautiful baby girl named Eva. She weighed in at 7.7 pounds. We were given a ride home in an ambulance Thursday evening and are quietly resting at home today. Baby Eva seems very happy to be home and slept wonderfully last night only waking occasionally to eat and change a dirty diaper. She has been sleeping again most of the day today and we have had a steady stream of visitors coming in and out to greet the new baby. Anyways, what you have all been waiting for is finally here, more pictures! We can't wait to introduce Eva to all of you.

Love,
Ben, Liz and Eva

Friday, March 16, 2012

A New Story

from Chaz:  What am I afraid of

Part One

Directly speaking I am afraid
Of you and me
I am afraid of this tilted and elliptical
Sphere of earth that is spinning
Out in the middle of the universe
With little care for the intensity of
My life while I do my best to make
My way through the bouts with
The living and the dead and the red

I am afraid of the dark and I am afraid
Of being rejected by women who I can't
Stop being in love with
I am afraid of walking across the street or
Driving my car into town
I am afraid of tonight and tomorrow and
Then I start to worry about next week
Or taking a trip to Africa or of being a
Grandfather or worrying that someone
I know might die or getting the phone call
That your son has been shot at and he better
Not be pulling some shit by calling you late
At night and then you find out he was right
And then you get afraid about that more

And before you know it you are afraid of
The kids down the street and their big dog
Or the big angry kid who throws rocks at
You when you walk by his house right before
Suppertime and you have lots of food at home
And parents who care what time you eat your
Dinner but his Dad works the late shift and his
Mom died a slow death lying on the couch at home
Smoking and drinking and watching game shows
Yeah the kid threw rocks at you while you walked
By on your way home where your mom wanted to
Know what kept you late and his house was dark
And his father couldn't be home to turn the lights on
Yeah he threw rocks at you and he was angry and
You were afraid of him but you also felt sorry for
Him and you didn't run by too fast because you
Wanted him to have a target to feel good about something
But he was kind of a lousy shot and you never
Got hit by the rocks but you got hit with your mother
Wanting to know what's up little boy
But you don't know what 's up so you say
I don't know and she looks at you and nods her
Head and says may the world be kind to this
Little kid because he's going to need some help
But I smile inside because I know something the
Angry big kid down the street doesn't

But then you find you are afraid of people who
Are angry at you or people who expect too much
From you or then you are afraid to go to the mail
Box because someone will be suing you or the tax
Man wants something more from you and you
Have given all you can and you need some rest but
Life keeps on taking and then you say I'm not afraid
Any more and I can accept this pain and this works for
A while until you work your pain down some more and
You find there is more you are afraid of at every level
You can Om and Om and Om and explain to people you
Are a vessel for light and you are useless in this life for
Anything else but they just tell you to get something to
Eat and get a good night's sleep and all will be better

You wake up in the morning and in an hour you have
The police surrounding you and they have computers
And maps and guns and radios and they want some
Explanations and you stumble for words but you are
White so everything is ok and while you drift back to
Your car and you remember how afraid of the police
You were as a kid and how you brought home three police
Cars and your dad was a traffic judge or maybe some other
Kind of judge but you were afraid they were going to take your
License away and then you are afraid of your dad who goes
To court with you and he tells the judge you are afraid of to
"Throw the book at the kid."
And then you are afraid that you'll never see your girl friend
Ever again because the judge you are afraid of took your license
And then you do see her again and then everything is
Wonderful but you are afraid to tell her parents you have to walk
Home and home is 21 miles away and then you find yourself
Walking home in the very dark night and you are afraid and then you
Are afraid again because no cars are coming by and then after a
Few hours a guy stops who is trying to find a lake to go fishing
In and you lie to him and tell him you know where the lake is
And now conviently the way to the lake goes by your parent's
House and then you are afraid that the fisherman realizes
You are a big liar and you are afraid he will do something crazy
To you but it doesn't matter because you are almost home anyway
And you are afraid that you are so tired that you couldn't defend yourself
So you say let me out of the car and just take a right up the hill
And you'll find the lake and then you are afraid of him turning the car around and
Following you to yell at my parents for having such a liar as a kid
But he drives off and you run home
And it's 4am and I'm afraid of what to tell my parents and I'm afraid if
I don't have a good reason for coming home at 4am I will be afraid of what
Comes next so I let my fear get a hold of my brain and I try and sneak in
The basement and I'm afraid that my father is going to catch me and I was
Right he caught me and then I had to be afraid of what he was going to do


God I need a rest

Charles Grimes

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Seattle First Annual Balkans Night

Julia and I went to Seattle last night for the first annual night of Balkans music at the Russian Center on Capitol Hill.  There were about 15 different bands.  In the main room, the bands were bigger tending towards Macedonia or Bulgarian music.  Huge folk dancing crowd there.  Lively music and all sorts of colorful costumes.  In the smaller "kafana,"  smaller groups, fewer instruments, lots of Croatian music there.   Sljivovica, wine, goat's cheese, olives, figs, bread, sausage. 

My favorite music was made between the main acts, on the dance floor, by a woman playing a large drum and a man playing a goatskin bagpipe-type instrument.  Loved it. 

And Julia got to practice some of her folk-dancing.

Saturday, March 03, 2012

Sheridan

Tim's place of employment -- the Sheridan Press -- gets some kind words from the Paris Review.

http://www.theparisreview.org/blog/2012/03/01/on-press-with-the-paris-review/

Prophecy or ???

I write to Slavko:
"Last night I dreamt that all of old town Milna had been demolished and replaced with a huge concrete shopping mall.  What a nightmare!!!!"  Slavko promptly replies:  "Got the explanation of your dream, there's a dozen of Caterpillars working in Milna this season, right now, so it's contrary, instead of demolishing, the building is going on. Back road, sewage system, new catamaran stop, fish factory, shipyard, some apartments building... Nada wouldn't mind if your dream comes true!!!"